CAMHS

I went to CAMHS today. Mum insisted she would come in to tell him about my eating problem. He said he doesn't specialize in eating problems so he will get advice of the eating disorder clinic for out next appointment. Urgh its so much effort. After the extremely bad weekend i just had, where i was depressed, and still am, and i was also having a really bad time with eating, he was very surprised that i didnt cut. But, if im honest, it was more lack of oportune that it was not needing/wanting to cut. I had many urges through this past week and yet i couldnt cut because my parents have constantly been around me because they worry. So i am alone now and i need to do it. The urge is so strong, and i feel i cant resist it. After 3 weeks without, the urges have congrigated if you like and are waiting to burst out. I dont want to cut, but the urges are getting much harder to ignore.

Moving on, He also asked me if i had done drugs and alcohol. I told the truth and said no to the drugs (he never pursued the alcohol further), i have been offered drugs and i said no because my parents would shoot me. He seemed to have quite a vast knowledge of weed and, untill he elaborated and said that he used to do it, i was like hmmmm.... He then told me it give you 'the munchies' and i didnt know that, well i did, sort of!

The one thing that bugged me, was he took my weight and height and weighed me 2 whole KG over what i actually weigh. This was probable due to wearing jeans and clunky shoes. But even so he should account for that. It bugged me.
So everything is good with CAMHS and there seems to be no progression with my mood. It will come with time.